Looking back

I went to my blog today in order to update my progress.  I realized as I started typing that I really don't have much to report.  My chemo treatment has resumed and I feel the same as I have in the past during treatment, a little more tired and fatigued than usual.  I will have blood work done on Friday in order to see if the treatment is knocking down the tumor activity that started up again while I was off chemo.  Other than that, I have nothing else to write about..... or so I thought.

The site I use for my blog has a statistics page.  It allows me to track the number of views and the location of where the views are taking place.  I was very surprised when I looked at this info.  There has been over 21,000 views to the blog from 10 different countries around the world.  I had to do something I had not done since the blog was started.  I went back and read my entries from the beginning.  This is what I realized.
It has been 8 months since my diagnosis.  Sometimes it seems like such a long time ago and other times it seems like yesterday.  I was not given a very good prognosis based on the scans and blood work presented to the doctors.  The best case scenario was 2 months, but the doctor said he would be as aggressive as possible and he was.  As I read the blog entries, I am reliving the feeling of hope as each treatment showed promise.  My faith in the Lord and the outpouring of prayer was evident in each post.  I also took notice in the way I began to see how important it is to enjoy what you have in your life.  We  all to often are looking into the future for happiness and missing the happiness we have in our life right now.  The events I have experienced since my diagnosis mean much more to me now because these were events I was supposed to miss.  Each blog entry is a testament to the miracle of healing.  It also reminds me how important my family has been over these last 8 months.  The difficulty of handling the unknown while having their lives turned upside down is harder than you could ever know.  Suddenly, I was the one who needed all the attention.  They have done everything I needed without fail.
While I was reading my blog I also read the comments made by the followers.  The feeling of love, hope and prayer is evident in all of the comments.  I did come to the realization that this blog is not mine, it's ours.  Every prayer and every positive thought is helpful in my recovery.  Keep them coming and we can review again in another 8 months.